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birthday week photo no. 7: 3/30/1984

30 Wednesday Mar 2011

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My third birthday (1984).
It is now obvious to me I need to find
another pair of pink sunglasses.

So today is my actual birthday. Thanks to everyone who is helping me celebrate, near and far. As I’m writing this post, it’s only 9:30 in the morning and I’ve already had “happy birthday” messages from folks in three separate countries on two continents.

Here’s to another thirty years. Then thirty more – and beyond.

birthday week photo no. 6: and then there were three

29 Tuesday Mar 2011

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Brian (5), Maggie (2), Anna (8), circa 1989

My parents decided that my projectile vomiting and incessant crying weren’t enough to deter them from increasing the family size, and in 1984 I found myself in possession of a brother — meeting him for the first time is one of my earliest memories — and in 1987 a sister (“she poops in the bathtub,” I noted in my diary — even at age six a chronicler of historical events). Here we are posing quasi-photogenically in our new flannel pyjamas.

As you can see, we grew up in a house in which there were never enough bookcases. Over twenty years later I’m proud to say that Hanna and I have pretty much the same problem on at least a quarterly if not monthly basis! Hanna just turned to me last night and said, “You realize one more trip to the $1 carts and we won’t have anywhere to store our board games.” I can think of many worse situations to be in.

birthday week photo nos. 4 & 5: anna + hats

28 Monday Mar 2011

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when the world was still in grayscale
this was my dad’s hat; for some reason I totally adored it

According to my mother, the nurses at the hospital where I was born kept trying to put knitted infant hats on me, to keep my head warm. I did not react well.

Apparently, I’ve always had a good set of lungs.
Even today I’m not terribly fond of hats (it bothers me to have something covering my ears), so I’m kind of surprised that two of the photos my mother picked out to scan actually feature me wearing hats.

harpy week: omnibus edition

27 Sunday Mar 2011

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Rainbow Harpy

Harpy Week is back, folks, after a hiatus due to being in Maine with zero internet connectivity visiting my in-laws (not strictly legal yet, but what else do you call them, really?).

Over the past two weeks I’ve written a handful of posts over at The Pursuit of Harpyness and my colleagues have posted a handful as well.

Working backwards this time, just for the sake of novelty

  • On Friday, I asked folks to share their favorite signs of spring. My favorite response as of this writing was from Es, who responded: “The big white patches of horsehair in the drying mud in the fields, where my girl has had her winter blankets off and is rolling her fluff out! Like pony-snow-angels.”
  • On Wednesday I threw up an open thread which developed several interesting conversations in comments about shitty experiences in academia, life changes, and wacky-yet-wonderful experiences in readers’ lives.
  • Last Monday, following the trip to Maine, I wrote a rant about size-based segregation and stigma in clothing stores. While comments got off to a relatively slow start, by the end of the week we’d accumulated quite a long thread in which folks described their various frustrations in finding clothing that matches their body type and aesthetic preferences.
  • During the previous week, I wrote a Harpy Hall of Fame post about Sylvia Pankhurst, the middle daughter of the famous family of British suffrage activists. Click through to find out why she’s buried in Addis Abiba, Ethiopia!
  • I highlighted a new report on bisexual invisibility published and made available online by the San Francisco Human Rights Commission LGBT Advisory Committee. There was some discussion in comments about what bisexual invisibility actually entailed, and how bisexual folks are (or are not) marginalized within the wider queer community.
  • And finally, nearly two weeks ago now I shared one of the wackiest pieces of solicitation junk mail I have ever had the (mis)fortune to receive. Click through for the tale of a Jesus prayer “rug” and the most egregious overuse of underlining in the history of the U.S. postal service.

Others have written posts on Wilma Mankiller, Geraldine Ferarro, and the Triangle Shirtwaist Factory fire (one hundred years ago March 25). We’ve discussed the ten commandments, prison rape, and stereotypes about mothers-in-law. We’ve talked about depression and job loss and what it takes some days to keep moving forward. Click on over to read the rest.

Hope you all have a day of rest this Sunday and that the week ahead is a little bit brighter for you than the one we’re leaving behind.

birthday week photo no. 3: you, me, and the baby makes three

27 Sunday Mar 2011

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Janet, Anna, and Mark (circa late 1981)

When my parents got married they bought an old 1890s fixer-upper in our town’s newly-created historic district. When I was born five years later, there were bare walls and gaps between the boards and a table saw in the living room. My grandmother was appalled. I doubt I cared much. As you can see, we had one of the most important things: a working record player and a good collection of albums (nearly offstage left).

My parents still look pretty much like this. My mother went through an unfortunate period of permed hair in the mid-1980s and Dad now has glasses, but otherwise that’s them. My hair’s a little longer and darker than it was back then. And I’d like to think I’ve gotten passed the blank stare. You’d have to check with Hanna on that one, though. She claims I have this look I get when the cogs in my brain go funky … maybe this photo captures an early instance of such a mental meltdown?

birthday week photo no. 2: baby anna sleeps like a cat

26 Saturday Mar 2011

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Mark and Anna take a nap (circa April 1981)

Every time I look at this picture, something about the posture of baby me reminds me of our cat Geraldine. Something about the way my arms are all out in front of me on Dad’s belly (although with the cat it would be her favorite wool blanket). Since I was five weeks early I had very little body fat; note my frighteningly skeletal fingers. Most of the bulk you see in under the onesie is actually the infant diapers, which covered me from butt to armpit. Thankfully, I quickly started growing … and didn’t really stop for the next eighteen years!

happy birthday mom!

25 Friday Mar 2011

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Today is my mother’s birthday. Happy birthday Mom!


Anna Jane and Janet Ann (circa April 1981)

 Thirty years ago on this day, when my mother Janet celebrated her 31st birthday she was still pregnant with me. Five days later, I got tired of waiting and decided to make my entrance into the world, a full five weeks before my anticipated due date. (I always did like to get ahead of myself).

As a special birthday request this year, I asked my mother to pick out some of her favorite photographs from my early childhood years to be scanned and posted on my blog during “birthday week.” So between now and next Friday, look forward to some incredibly dated and fun family photography! (Why else were blogs invented by for embrassing onesself in public, yes?)

Meanwhile, wish my awesome mother many happy returns of the day and another 61 years of kick-ass living, learning and being part of this wacky and wonderful family she helped create.

in love with new blogs: born this way

24 Thursday Mar 2011

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Okay. I don’t know about you folks, but this week has really knocked me back a few paces in one way or another. Can’t believe it’s only Thursday. Looking forward to the weekend. But! In the meantime, what does one do to de-stress?

Well, there are lots of options, but the one I’m going to share here is my new favorite blog: Born This Way!

In its own words, Born This Way! is “A photo/essay project for gay adults (of all genders) to submit childhood pictures and stories (roughly ages 2 to 12), reflecting memories & early beginnings of their innate LGBTQ selves.”

Heather, age 1

Quite simply: How could you not become addicted to a blog devoted to posting adorable pictures of queer folks when they were children, alongside stories of their early memories of growing up not-quite-straight? Sometimes the snippets of life are hard, sometimes they’re heartening. I know not everyone will agree with me, but I find every single one of the photographs completely compelling — no matter how awkward they might be, particularly when read alongside stories of childhood marginalization. I think the thing I love most about them is that, almost by default, every single child in these photographs has grown into a self-possessed adult who believes in themselves enough to submit their story to this blog. They are, by definition, all resilient survivors.

Here are a few of my favorite pictures and memories from the last couple of weeks’ worth of posts.


Heather, age 1 (Guam, USA)



“I first learned that openly admiring girls was ‘wrong’ when I was 4, and saw an episode of ‘Beverly Hills 90210.’ It was a beach scene, and the girls were in bikinis. Several times, I mentioned how pretty the girls were, and my aunt told my mom I was going to be gay. Oh, me and my mouth.”

Clarissa, age 4 (Bronx, NY)



Clarissa, age 4 (Bronx, NY)

 “I loved being a tomboy! I wanted to be tough and dirty, and would go to work with my dad the mechanic. I didn’t always wear coveralls, though. My mom found a way to get me to wear dresses by making them herself, patterning them after Lucy Van Pelt of the ‘Peanuts’ cartoon. I acknowledged Lucy’s toughness, and felt tough in those dresses, too!”

Isaac, age 4 (Lodi, WI)
Isaac, age 4 (Lodi, WI)
“This is a picture of me dressing up in the pre-school that I attended. It was actually published in the local paper, for a feature story about the pre-school. I loved to put on that tutu and dance around the play area, and pretend to be a princess. I loved making the other students play princess with me, especially the boys.”

It’s interesting to me, reading these submissions, how often gender-atypical behavior (being a girl who resists dresses, a boy who likes makeup) gets identified by the author of the post as one of their earliest signs that they were “different” … even though gender-atypical behavior doesn’t actually correlate with a non-straight sexual orientation. I wonder if these narratives of being gender-atypical are a product of adults looking back into their own childhoods in search of confirmation that they were queer from their earliest memories — long before they would have had conscious feelings of adult sexual desire. I certainly know that since realizing (as an adult) my fluid sexuality, I’ve caught myself looking backwards into the past for signs of queerness in my childhood. Sometimes I question whether that’s the most accurate or valid approach to self-confirmation!

But that’s enough metaphysical speculation for today! If you yourself identify as queer and want to participate in the project, check out the submission guidelines page. It’s definitely on my own “to do” list once I have a little space to breathe around here. If/when I end up submitting something and if/when it gets published, watch for the link to appear right here at the feminist librarian.

ficnotes: the student prince

22 Tuesday Mar 2011

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I know, I know … last time I did one of these I promised more femslash! And now here I am bringing you more yaoi. What can I say? My friend Minerva encouraged me to check this one out and it was so totally and completely charming that I simply have to share it with you.

Title: The Student Prince
Author: FayJay
Pairing: Arthur/Merlin (AU)
Rating:G to NC-17 depending on chapter.

Length: 35 chapters (navigable through drop-down menu)
Available At: Archive of Our Own and Audiofic(swoon!!)

So I don’t know how many of you have seen any episodes of the new BBC series Merlin but Hanna and I caught about half the first season two summers ago, back when we were still getting the channel that broadcast the show here in the U.S. and…yeah. This was a show that frickin’ wore the slash right there on its sleeve. The whole show played like a massive in-joke between the actors playing Merlin and Arthur, who were clearly egging one another on to make every single interaction between the two characters be so brimming full of subtext that the subtext just gave up the damn ghost and became text.

Every person I’ve informally surveyed about this show agrees with the above assessment. And if the fanfic and fan art are anything to go by? This state of affairs totally meets with fan approval.

So what can I say about “The Student Prince”? Broadly speaking, it’s an AU (“alternate universe”) fic set in modern-day England, largely at St. Andrews University, the Kingdom of Fife, Scotland, where all the major players are first-year students at university. Arthur is the only son of the nation’s ruling monarch, Uther Pendragon, whose mother died in childbirth. Merlin is a scholarship student from Cardiff studying Physics and (a bit more covertly) Magic. Gwen, a fellow first-year Merlin meets on the train to Edinburgh, is an Engineering student who is nursing a major crush for third-year student and kick-boxing instructor Lance. Morgana, reading Magic alongside Merlin, is Arthur’s cousin the Duchess of Edinburgh and next in line after him for the throne.

There’s a dragon. There’s a kitten. There’s Raisin Weekend, evil plots, skipped lectures, stolen kisses, not-so-stolen kisses … as Minerva succictly put it in an email, “The Student Prince is quite adorable most of the way through, then it gets smokin’ hot, then angsty, then adorable again.”

Oh, and have I mentioned that the Great Dragon wants an iPod?

Have fun everyone!

from the neighborhood: gratuitous geraldine pics

17 Thursday Mar 2011

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Geraldine helps with thesis revisions
Geraldine takes after her cousin Toby by sleeping in the napkin basket
Gerry gets sneaky (if she can’t see you, you obviously can’t see her)
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