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from bookstore to library

17 Friday Jul 2015

Posted by Anna Clutterbuck-Cook in a sense of place

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Hope-Geneva Bookstore, 1971.

My father, Mark, is retiring today — on his 64th birthday — from his position as Director of the Hope-Geneva Bookstore at Hope College (Holland, Mich.), my alma mater and extended living room. He’s held the position since 1973.

I have a complicated relationship with Hope College — like most people have with their extended families. Most of my earliest childhood memories implicate places and people whom we knew, in part, through Hope College connections. And the Hope-Geneva Bookstore was the site of my earliest work experiences. It was through work as a bookseller that I eventually found my way into librarianship.

It was also my father’s work that gave me access to, and appreciation of, all the resources available at institutions of higher education. I was incredibly privileged to leave seven years of undergraduate studies only $5,000 in debt, having availed myself of the faculty, award-winning library, and cultural resources the college had to offer.

In other words, in many ways, I am the librarian I am today because of the bookseller my father has been for the past forty years.

(As an aside: I was pleased to see, a couple of weeks ago, that they’ve publicly announced that the institution will recognize the same-sex spouses of faculty and staff for the purposes of all college benefits. Hanna and I still couldn’t get married in the college chapel but hey, baby steps are better than standing in place or running backwards.)

Another thing my father’s long career at Hope College has taught me is that it is possible to remain in the same job for decades while constantly reinventing your work in ways that keep your mind sharp, your energy relatively positive, and your labors worthwhile. Being able to “grow in place” is just as valuable a skill, I would argue, as knowing when or if it is time to move on. (Assuming, in both cases, you have a say in the matter.)

Dad’s doing a bit of both the next couple of years, shifting to a new part-time project position for the college — I hear he’s super excited about his new office with a balcony on which to drink his morning coffee! — and then transitioning to freelance work as a mapmaker, in addition to books and bicycles another of his enduring romances.

There’s no larger point to this post — I just wanted to take note of the day and share how much my father’s career really has (and will continue to) inspire my own. … Including the eternal quest for an office with windows and a sun-warmed balcony on which to drink that morning coffee!

recommended reading on #obergefell

03 Friday Jul 2015

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obergefell_smIt’s been a week since the Obergefell v. Hodges (pdf) decision came down from the Supreme Court. I don’t know about you, but I’m not ready to quit sporting the rainbow-hued lenses of the past week. On this 4th of July eve, as I made out with my wife on our back porch in full view of the neighborhood I thought to myself that today I agree with President Obama that “our union is a little more perfect.”

Still, a lot of excellent commentary has come out in the last seven days — not all of it joyous. And I thought I would take a moment to share some of my favorites. Every major legal and social change has its complications and landmines — and no, I’m not talking about the feelings of anti-gay Christians forced to reckon with the fact they share this country with people whose values differ from their own. Below are the perspectives I found eloquent, entertaining, or otherwise useful in placing Obergefell in perspective.

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26.06.2015

26 Friday Jun 2015

Posted by Anna Clutterbuck-Cook in our family

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in which I write letters: “female patients ONLY”?? #wtf

25 Thursday Jun 2015

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Dear Beth Israel Deaconess Medical Center,

I had an appointment at your radiology department this afternoon to follow up on a potential irregularity in my left breast (thankfully all is well!). Overall I had an exceptional experience: your reception staff, mammography and ultrasound technicians, and doctor were all courteous and professional. The decor was a little overwhelmingly floral, and was it really necessary to have that much pink in the color scheme — right down to the pink floral sticker they affixed to the relevant spot on my boob? But I can roll my eyes at those design decisions and get on with my day.

What I am uninterested in rolling my eyes at and moving on from is this:

IMG_20150625_145204Several years ago, when my wife had an appointment in your radiology department we happened to notice this sign in passing and found it troubling. I had hoped, upon my return today, to find that your policies and signage had changed — but had my phone ready to hand for snapping this picture if they had not. And here we are.

My problem with this sign and policy is quite simple: Male people (assigned and/or identified) can get breast cancer or experience other physical issues needing breast imaging services. Whether or not you provide those services to male individuals elsewhere, or make exceptions to the stated policy on a case-by-case basis, the sign is alienating. It is unwelcoming not just to men but to women (like me and my wife) who find spaces that are women-only by policy to be unwelcoming, uncomfortable spaces. To put it another way, I am more comfortable accessing healthcare in a place welcome to people of all combinations of sex, gender, and sexuality than I am seeking care in a place that explicitly states that it only welcomes certain types of bodies and/or identities to pass through its doors.

Given that our family’s health center, Fenway Health — a leading provider of respectful, holistic care to trans and genderqueer individuals — refers patients regularly to your institution for necessary clinical care, I would have expected better from you. I am disappointed that in 2015 you continue to use signage (and presumably enforce policies) that are so exclusionary.

I hope the next time I have reason to visit your radiology department I won’t have cause to pull my camera out of my messenger bag.

Sincerely,
Anna

virtual book tour: best lesbian erotica 2015

23 Tuesday Jun 2015

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Today I am hosting another Cleis Press virtual book tour, this time for their new anthology Best Lesbian Erotica 2015, edited by Laura Antoniou. A collection of twenty short stories by twenty-one different authors, this volume contains a refreshing variety of stories. Among my favorites were a tale of sexual flirtation told through an exchange of emails; the story of USO performer who seduces a WASP in the dressing room; a weaver who’s seduced by a Goddess; a lesbian elder narrating the beginnings of a long-term relationship to her lover; an arranged marriage to a queen; and a tattoo sitting that ends up entangled with sex. Having enjoyed the finished product, I was pleased to have the opportunity to interview the editor who had curated the collection. Without further ado, here is Laura Antoniou.

Best Lesbian Erotica 2015 cover imageOne of the things that really impressed me about Best Lesbian Erotica 2015 was the variety of stories. Too often, in my experience, erotica collections end up feeling very one-note. I think, often, it’s assumed that erotica readers are not very adventurous — that they’ll only read stories around sexual themes they themselves enjoy. But this volume has many different flavors and settings — including historical and fantastical. What was your thinking in bringing such disparate tales together?

Antoniou: Sometimes I do see a sad sort of sameness in genre entertainment, and lesbian erotica is nothing if not a very niche field. And publishing is a very conservative industry. Editors and publishers want exactly what sold well before – even as they wait for the next big hit to change the game. Add this to the fact that readers of erotica have a narrowly defined goal – to get aroused – and you have a formula for…formula. Two ladies meet. They engage in one sex act from column A and two from column B, leading to a sweet and wry ending after the explosive climax. Or multiple climax.

But in reality, lesbians aren’t this monolithic cookie-cutter production line of similarities. Gather ten of us in a room and you’ll have ten sets of turn-ons, turn-offs, experiences and desires and a range of fantasies that would make Nancy Friday blush. (I’m SO dating myself.) Our erotic literature should reflect that. And an anthology is the best way to do so; it allows for some stories to get immediately dog-eared (or bookmarked on a reading device?) and some to elicit fond or different kinds of thoughts and some that will be skipped over every time the reader pulls that book out. That’s freedom to me.

You write in your introduction that “one of the things I love about a sexy tale is an unmooring from reality.” That got me thinking about the pressure from some quarters that depictions of human sexuality be “realistic.” I get where that impulse is coming from, pushing back against performance anxieties around sexual intimacy and public health concerns. But we don’t demand that other genres — high fantasy, horror, poetry, fiction — be realistic. What do you think is lost with this demand that sexual fictions aspire to realism?

Antoniou: I never wanted my erotic fiction to have to stick to reality, whether in depictions of safer sex or physical capabilities for the same reason why I don’t demand my swords and sorcery or stalwart detective mysteries to adhere to objective reality. Fiction was not designed for truth. It is, in fact, more designed for what Stephen Colbert called “truthiness,” – a feeling that something could, or should be true, or is close enough to accept for your purposes. Erotica features characters who are super-model gorgeous, with the stamina of an Olympic athlete and responses a porn star would envy – and sure, that could be intimidating to we common humans. But erotica also contains sexy vampires and werewolves, impossible coincidences and magical things like the mind reading required for two strangers to get each other off exactly according to their desires. Or, despite them. If readers can accept magically perfect sex, then they can accept magically perfect sex with a goddess. A don’t know how different a Greek or African goddess is from that track-star, super-model, sexual dynamo, any way.

As someone who enjoys writing and reading erotic stories involving established relationships, I appreciated that you included some of those tales in 2015 and acknowledged them explicitly in your introduction. Why do you think erotica as a genre is so wedded to early relationship, “first time,” or hook-up encounter narratives?

Antoniou: First time narratives are awesome! They include joys we treasure. The mystery of this amazing person you’re going to be intimate with. The discovery process of flirtation or negotiation. Being surprised is wonderful. First time or stranger stories can include an element of doubt or danger, and the invention of a new connection. Of course they’re standard stories, especially in short form.

But to rely ONLY on first timers, or those elusive one-nighters means we ignore the steady and passionate strength of people who DO know each other well. Stories using characters who have already gone though the awkward or the sex-all-the-time honeymoon stages are more deliberate, and to me, more romantic. They show how knowing someone really does give one a sense of magical connection, that mind reading so unbelievable in a first time story. And I love how they show the scars and the ribbons from past experience. Sex with a long time lover isn’t as frantic or frightening as with a new one…unless, of course, that relationship came with more scars than ribbons. That’s how I could include the sweetest of stories about sexuality when your love is weak and ill, versus the hate-sex of people who really shouldn’t ever talk to each other because they just make things worse.

As an editor, what are one or two tropes in erotica you think have run their course?

Antoniou: I think we should have been over vampires even before Twilight, but whatevs, as they say. I’m also kind of over the expectations of butch = neanderthal and femme = fatale or selfish. I love me a good butch/femme dynamic, but some things are just old, not to mention hackneyed.

What are one or two things you’d like to see more of in the erotica you read?

Antoniou: Oh…gosh. Well. My personal taste differs from my editorial taste a great deal. Personally, I read the trashiest sort of things, and have no care for literary quality. But in general, I really would like to see more variety in setting. I love how I am seeing more queer romance set outside of the usual A) Big gay friendly city/gay neighborhood enclave of mostly white girls ready for a Netflix adaptation or B) small town girls getting it on in a setting that seems like it came out of a tourist brochure rather than genuine experience in such a setting. I’d like to see more than contemporary stories with contemporary language and mores. Different periods is a great place to hang out, especially if the author can evoke a time and place with just enough detail to let a reader feel like they could be there, too. I’d like to see some more fantastic settings, as in unreal, or completely alien, to challenge our own tropes and expectations. And I’d like to see more darkness, too. Erotic horror and dark fantasy, with edginess that makes a reader feel a little guilty for enjoying it? Oh, yeah, baby. That’s my kind of tale.

You can check out Best Lesbian Erotica 2015 at Cleis Press, your local bookshop or library, or one of the many online retailers. Find out more about Laura Antoniou’s work at lantoniou.com.

maine, london, jamaica plain [our june 2015]

20 Saturday Jun 2015

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Max and Sadie watching the hummingbird feeders.

Max and Sadie watching the hummingbird feeder.

June has sped by with a lot of activity for our household: We successfully launched the Boston Summer Seminar, Hanna traveled to London for a meeting at the Wellcome Library (and to play tourist in London!), I spent a weekend in Maine with my in-laws, and of course we’ve been busy gardening.

Garden plot, April 2015.

Garden plot, April 2015.

In April we were assigned a garden plot at the nearby Roundhill St./Day St. Community Garden — one of several Boston Natural Areas Network (BNAN) community gardens in the neighborhood. Above is what our plot looked like upon assignment.

Garden plot, June 2015.

Garden plot, June 2015.

This past week, I snapped a picture of the green things growing on what used to be barren dirt: nasturtiums, pumpkins, English peas, fennel, leeks, radishes, basil, sage, and wildflowers.

The Luggage, carrying home our first CSA share of the season.

The Luggage, carrying home our first CSA share of the season.

Today, when we picked up our CSA share from Stillman’s Farm — the first of the 2015 season! — and bought three heirloom tomato plants for $10.00 to grow on the back porch.

Matt, our neighbor, helping install our Little Free Library.

Matt, our neighbor, helping install our Little Free Library.

On my trip to Maine, while Hanna was in London, I picked up a Little Free Library built by my father-in-law Kevin to our specifications (Hanna particularly requested the TARDIS blue). Our neighbor, Matt, offered to help install it with his electric drill. Thank you, Matt!

Boston Summer Seminar, evening session, June 2015.

Boston Summer Seminar, evening session, June 2015.

Hanna and I were both involved in designing and running the Boston Summer Seminar, which ended up overlapping with Hanna’s travel abroad. We had three research teams of faculty and undergraduates from Hope College, Kenyon College, and College of Wooster, converge on Boston to do amazing work on food and national identity, women and education, and nineteenth century ballet.

Wife tattoos, May 2015.

Wife tattoos, May 2015.

This month marks the sixth anniversary of our coupledom. I snapped this photograph of our wedding tattoos while we were waiting at Fresh Hair salon a few weeks ago waiting for an appointment. I’m starting to hanker for another tattoo. My most recent ink was done in honor of my grandmother’s passing in 2013 and the two-year itch has definitely arrived. Not just because I wrote a piece of Haven fanfic involving wedding tattoos.

Feet selfies at City Feed and Supply, Jamaica Plain.

Feet selfies (Hanna and Anna) at City Feed and Supply, Jamaica Plain, 4 June 2015.

My #365feministselfie project continues, and in addition to posting them daily on Facebook and Twitter, I am gathering the images in an album on the feminist librarian Facebook page.

Geraldine, June 2015.

Geraldine, June 2015.

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Teazle, June 2015.

What’s up for the rest of this summer? My work at the Massachusetts Historical Society will pick up in July and August as our 2015-2016 cohort of research fellows begins flooding in. Hanna, meanwhile, is taking a six week summer class at Harvard on Celtic literature. We typically don’t plan vacation time during the summer months for that reason — that’s a treat we save for Septembers, around the time of our wedding anniversary. We haven’t made plans for that time yet, this year, but we’ll probably spend a long weekend in Maine and maybe take another long weekend in Vermont or on Cape Cod, just for ourselves (finances willing).

Other than that, it’s gardening, books, and maybe I’ll make some time to finish that mosaic table-top project I started. And set up the sewing machine my mother-in-law handed off to me. And finishing my Haven fanfic. And all those other side projects that happen in the magic hours between midnight and midnight…

virtual book tour: the right side of history

09 Tuesday Jun 2015

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rightsideselfieI’m giving a copy of The Right Side of History away! Check out the end of the post for details.

I recently finished a review of Lillian Faderman’s forthcoming The Gay Revolution: The Story of the Struggle (Simon & Schuster, 2015) for Library Journal. In that review, I observed that “if Revolution has a weakness it is a by-product of Faderman’s laudable ambition: big-picture narratives inevitably short-change individual stories.” The day after submitting my review, The Right Side of History: 100 Years if LGBTQI Activism, an anthology curated by Adrian Brooks (Cleis Press, 2015) arrived in the mail to address this shortcoming.

A “willfully cacophonous” collection of essays and interviews (as the forward by Jonathan Katz observes), The Right Side seeks the opposite of a coherent historical narrative. Instead, it offers us windows through which we can peer into queer lives past and consider under what circumstances our forebears lived. From Isadora Duncan and The Cradle Will Rock to an interview with Matthew Shephard’s mother and Sultan Shakir’s reflections on being “Black, Gay, and Muslim,” this anthology resists presenting us with a march toward a near future gay liberation. Instead, we are asked to consider the freedoms and constraints of individual lives; instead, we are confronted with LGBTQI individuals who may, or may not, be poster children of queer equality achieved. I appreciate the authors’s divergent voices, some first-person reflection and some more scholarly in tone — and I appreciate that queer activism is not always the primary focus of each piece. Instead, we see queer individuals involved in the struggle for racial justice or better labor conditions as well as their rights as specifically non-straight citizens.

The Right Side of History is not an original work of historical scholarship. The essays, when they aren’t first-person pieces or interviews, rely on secondary sources for most of their historical claims. However, as I was reading it I thought of myself as a twelve-year-old, and how I likely would have benefited enormously from having a copy of The Right Side pressed into my hands as a birthday or Christmas gift. I was the sort of child who voraciously read young peoples’ biographical sketches of inspiring women of history (some of whom I now know were decidedly queer). This collection would have helped me see possibilities for myself in a similar way as those women-of-history collections did — helped me find language and historical context for longings I was just beginning to form. I suggest you consider this book for the queer, questioning, and just plain historically interested teenagers in your life; it’s never too early to start peering through the windows of the past and considering how and where you might fit yourself.

GIVEAWAY!

Cleis Press has generously offered one free copy of The Right Side of History to readers of this review. If you would like to put your name in the hat, please comment (here on this review) or Tweet (to me @feministlib) sharing the name of an individual or an event that you feel is under-recognized in queer history. If you had been tasked with writing a chapter for Brooks’ anthology, whom or what would you have chosen to write about? Deadline for entries is 5pm Friday 6/12 and I will contact the winner* on Monday 6/15 to obtain a mailing address.**

*I will use an online randomizer to select one out of all valid entries.
**Cleis Press will only mail to a U.S. address.

my #365feministselfie project: day sixty

28 Thursday May 2015

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57/365. At Cafe Aromi in Hyde Square, Jamaica Plain, Mass. (25 May 2015)

57/365. At Cafe Aromi in Hyde Square, Jamaica Plain, Mass. (25 May 2015)

Today I’m sixty days into my #365feministselfie project, wherein I post one selfie per day for an entire year. I started the project on a whim the day after my birthday and it’s kind of grown organically from there into something that has been unexpectedly moving for me to participate in. I’m not someone who is particularly averse to having my own image captured and displayed publicly (as my blog header and digital avatars attest) but even for me there is something joyfully normalizing about having a visual record of self that documents life in situ on a daily basis.

As a historian and archivist who works with personal papers, this ritual of the daily selfie reminds me of the many line-a-day diaries the Massachusetts Historical Society holds in their manuscript collections: the snippets of daily life that, over the course of a year or years document change over time. Through some powerful alchemy of time, the mundane is transformed into something that holds power not only for the creator but for those who witness the act — in the moment of creation as well as decades or centuries later.

I’ve had multiple friends and followers tell me on Facebook and Twitter how much they love the daily photos — some of them have even been motivated to embark upon their own 365 challenge or to consider doing so. For some people, particularly women in our culture, considering the possibility of 365 selfies may be all they are able to do (for now). But I count even those moments as victories, if I can make the prospect of putting ourselves out into the world unpolished something that falls with the realm of the possible.

Looking forward to the next 305 days! Follow along @feministlib, on Facebook, or catch see the project as a whole at the #365feministselfie album.

professionally speaking

14 Thursday May 2015

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45/365 #365feministselfie

Hanna and I had a meeting yesterday afternoon with Natalie Dykstra at which I snapped my Wednesday #365feministselfie (above). It was the penultimate planning meeting for the GLCA Boston Summer Seminar which we’ve been involved in proposing, planning and — soon! — putting into action this June. We’ve got three teams of researchers, three faculty members and six undergraduates, coming to Boston to spend some quality time in the archives. It’s been a lot of fun and rewarding to develop a program from scratch. I’ve learned a lot — and look forward to learning more over the next six weeks!

You’ll be able to follow us @GLCABOSTON, from which Hanna is going to be live-tweeting our five evening seminars and sharing other tidbits during the June 1-18 residency.

movienotes: better than chocolate

05 Tuesday May 2015

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So I’m probably the last bisexual lesbian in North America to watch Better Than Chocolate (1999), a delightful indie Canadian film that centers two adorable lesbian romances. When do people have the time and energy to watch movies after they’re no longer in school?! But while Hanna was off at a conference last week and I was feeling pissed off about the conservative pundits’ commentary on Obergefell v. Hodges I decided to finally sit my ass down and watch me ladies getting up to naughty, pleasurable things. Because I figure nothing says “bite me” in this context quite like just getting on with enjoying our civilization-destroying lives. Continue reading →

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